Well hello-- It has been an interesting week for me. On the second week following treatment my hopes were to be getting back to normal, healing and feeling better. I was hoping to be more energetic, pain decreasing and eating better. So imagine my frustration when the opposite has been true. My energy is hard to judge for me right now because of all the pain medication I am on, The Pain has been increasing ( I have resorted to eating baby food because it is all I can get down due to the pain.) Therefore, My eating is worse. I am at least getting my 10 veggies in with a liquid supplement and Protein with a protein drink and then the rest is whatever I can get down in a 24 hour day. Rob and mom are laughing at me - I have always been a slow eater, but WOW now it takes me 2 hours to get my super down - ie: mac n cheese, bowl of rice with cooked carrots and green beans. And that is the only meal of the day that doesn't consist of pure type food. I went back in to see the doctor on Wednesday due to my frustration and lack of getting better. He said we should be getting better any day now (not sure how comforting that is or what that means) but he thought I had thrush - hence the increase in pain. Mom was a LIFE SAVER on Tuesday, she called her dentist and they had a syrup mixed up for me to swish in my mouth that numbs it for about 2-4 hours at a time and that has been such a blessing, I was getting to were it hurt even to open my mouth and talk and that was making it hard to work for sure since most of what I do is talking to patients and teaching. I actually called in sick for the first time on Tuesday. (It just about killed me but I did it ) The doctor gave me some tablets to dissolve in my mouth to help heal the thrush and said I could continue the swish. We are also trying to get off the steroids without getting headaches, which is slow, but getting there, (this will also help the thrush) now down to 1 a day. On an up side the sun has been out this week and really helped give me a boost of much needed happy endorphins. I have tried to set on the porch as much as possible - Mom is a blessing to us she always knows the right thing to do (even when you resist) And Rob continues to be such a support for my frustrations and getting me through all this emotional stuff---- God brings what you need when its needed, it never ceases to amaze me how he works this way.
Again I want to thank all of you for the cards, notes, letter of support and encouragement, It is such a help - I have them all out on the table so I can go by and read them when I need a little boost.
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